My Jensen Ackles experience at #VanCon

Like every convention , Vancon offered autograph sessions and photo op sessions with the actors. Most of the autographs were included in the Gold Ticket so I went to get them. All of the actors were very nice and took time for the fans. I wanted Misha to sign the Halloween picture all of them tweeted last Halloween but I forgot the picture in the hotel room and there was no time to go and get it so I just had him sign my companion book like the others. Sunday was J and J day and this time I did not forget the pictures. My row went up to Jared’s table first and I handed him the picture and he laughed and asked “So do I sign my name under real me or fake me?” He signed all over it and I had to laugh too.

And then it was time to line up for Jensen. This time I wanted to give him something. 2 years ago when I was in therapy for depression I made a little star out of soap stone. It was a lot of work and it even looked halfway decent and somehow I’ve always wanted him to have it and thank him for helping me through such a hard time. Also I wanted him to sign the Bazaar China magazine he was in. I was standing in line and getting more nervous every second and held on to my star and magazine and repeated the lines I wanted to say to him in my head and started questioning whether I should really give it to him every other minute. I didn’t see anyone else give him something to I wasn’t sure anymore. Then I got to the point in the line where I could watch Jensen and see how amazing he was with his fans and I decided that I should just do it, no matter what the others did. My heart was racing and then it was finally my turn. I gave the handler my magazine and I tried to smile through the nervousness. Jensen said hi and I said hi and he saw the magazine and seemed pretty surprised that I had it. While he was writing I just asked him “Can I give you something?”, and he looked up and said “Sure” and then it was my time to give him my star. I don’t remember exactly what I said. I handed him the star. “I made this myself when I was in therapy and I just wanted to give this to you to thank you. You helped me and the show helped me.” He was kind of speechless and asked “You made this yourself? Wow.” And I added: “It would mean a lot to me if you had this.” And he smiled again and said “Thank you.” I think he said something else but I don’t remember exactly. He has that effect on you. I think I said “Thank YOU.” And then it was over already. It was such a wonderful moment and this report can’t really do it justice. I was so happy and shaking when I left his table and had to sit down and process everything before I could do anything else. It was also the moment the convention was definitely over.

Earlier that day I had my Jensen photo ops and it was another amazing experience. I was already nervous when I got in line. I am always nervous when I’m close to seeing him face to face. I mean, he is Jensen Ackles. That’s Dean Winchester. So I was in his photo op line and it moved pretty quick. I had two photo op tickets and was never able to come up with a pose for the second one. I always want hugs. He’s a wonderful hugger. I watched him do some other pictures with the fans till it was my turn. He looked stunning and I didn’t really know what to say so I just said “Hi” and I smiled and he said hi, too, and then I wanted to ask him for a hug and what I said wasn’t really what I had planned to say, it was more than I had planned. “I always come for the hugs because I love hugs and I don’t get a lot of hugs.” Don’t know why I suddenly added the last part but he said “Awww” and pulled me in for a big hug for the picture and the Chris took the pic but Jensen didn’t let go, he just gave me another extra squeeze and I don’t know what I thought in that moment but it was amazing. For the next photo op I asked him for a Dean hug this time and we hugged again and when he let go, I think I said thank you and he called me “Sweetheart” and then I was just so blown away and of course shaking. I left the room and went back downstairs I think, I couldn’t think clearly.

It wasn’t my first convention but it was definitely my favorite experience with Jensen. He’s always been very sweet but this time it was extra special. I just love this guy so much.